3/9/15

It’s been awhile since I’ve last written I know, but it’s been a crazy time in my life.  I’m still looking for another job, that hasn’t changed. I have had interviews, but i’m looking for a career move, not just another job.  The problem i’m having right now is that i’m either too over qualified, or just not qualified enough.  It really pisses me off that here I am with a bachelor degree, working on my masters and can’t get assistance.  Yet, you have third generation welfare families with no high school diploma and they have a fridge full of food, cable, cellphone, $36 for rent and haven’t worked in years.  Sonny was right,the workin man is a Sucka! – Bronx Tale

I almost have my costume ready for Chicago’s WizardCon.  I’m going as Barf from spaceballs and my niece is going as batman.  I’m crazy excited to take her cause she is such an awesome kid and I think she will have a blast.  I’m taking my nephew to his first wwe ppv next month which i know will make him shit his pants.  Not being able to have kids myself, i enjoy doing those types of things with my nieces and nephews.  Now if i can only get my nephew addicted to hockey lol

This weekend, i decided to go visit my biological mom in Missouri.  I have not lived with her since I was about 6, so unfortunately when i visit, we tend to argue about something. She has her way of thinking and i have my dads.  It doesn’t mix.  So yeah, we got into an argument because my mom has beef with her niece,my cousin.  My cousin asked me to go to lunch with her and my other cousins, however because of this dumb ass beef, my mom was having none of it.  However, i’m 35 and i’m going to do what i want, so i went and had an awesome time catching up with my cousins.  My mom said some things to me that I wont put on here but didn’t make me feel very good, especially coming from a mom.  I love my mom no matter what, after all she is my mom. It’s just hard when you have not lived with someone or been at least in the same state as someone for over 25 years.  Personalities and attitudes clash. I do have a step mom,but i introduce her as mom to people i meet.  She has been my mom since i was like 6.  I’ve just never got around to calling her mom, don’t know why.  I should since she is the one who has raised me..it’s difficult to explain I guess.

I did however have a kick ass time with my sister and her husband.  My sister and i also have never lived together really except for maybe till she was 4.  We usually fight ever damn time we see each other.  She is strong minded as am I and we don’t hold back.  But for some reason, this time we bonded unlike before. If there is one thing i wish I could go back and change in my life, it is that i would have been a better brother to both of my sisters.  I try to make up for it now that we are older, but there are many years that could and should have been better.

It’s actually funny how when your body is sick, you start to think about the life you have lived and things you would have changed, like it’s going to heal you now.  Actually that is not very good to do, it can bring depression and anxiety and make you feel worse.

I love Paige from WWE, just getting that out there.

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