Well shit…

As I got off work today I got in my car and sped home. Zooming past cars left and right, going through yellow lights as they were turning red. Sweat beads on my forehead drip down to my eyes blurring my vision, while the perspiration under my arms begins to seep through my shirt.

I NEED TO GET HOME NOW, my mind keeps telling me as if someone is in the passenger seat screaming in my ear. I pull into my driveway slowly, but still with a sense of urgency.  I run into my home with my heart beating like a native summoning the rain. I look down, see my girlfriend on the floor with my daughter. AM I TOO LATE as i look down at them.  Nope, they’re just sleeping.

I run towards my bedroom, open the door ever so slightly…and there it is..looking right back at me.  My Gun.  Whew, thank god! I was worried about it walking out of  the house and going on a killing spree.

What a relief.  I mean I keep hearing on the news that guns are to blame for the mass shootings in El Paso and Dayton.  I kind of have to wonder when my gun is going to grow legs too, like those used the past few days.  I don’t know, maybe Glocks are late bloomers….

Do we see how stupid that story sounds?  MORE GUN LAWS!! MORE GUN RESTRICTIONS!! Yeah, that will help.  Perhaps you can use old Barbara’s “Just Say No” and post it above a picture of a gun. You know, cause that worked so well for the War on Drugs.

Guns are not the issue, it’s the people behind the gun.  I know..I know.  Here comes the “guns don’t kill people, people kill people” speech.  Well, yeah. It’s about self accountability. As a diabetic myself, if I die today from drinking a 2 liter of pepsi, does my girlfriend say NO MORE SODA, BAN ALL SODA’s.  No, of course not. She has enough commons sense to say well,  self accountability, Robert knew that soda could kill him.

Same goes for those two people who caused the mass shootings.  They both woke up, put there clothes on, walked out the door and did what they did.  At no time did the weapon used grab either of them and said “lets go kill some people today”

We need to stop blaming the gun/knife/plane/whatever and start putting the blame on the person committing the act.  Gun laws aren’t going to do a damn thing but punish the responsible gun owner like myself.  What we need to do is offer better mental health care. We need to teach our youth that not all blacks are gangsters, not all brown people are illegal and not all whites are racist.  Not all whites are racist?? Believe it or not, most aren’t. But you wouldn’t believe that according to the media.

Self accountability folks, it goes a long way. Stop blaming the guns, stop blaming the President, stop blaming the music, stop blaming the video games…blame the people doing the act.  And for the love of god, stop glorifying it on the news.

A little of this, A little of that.

Going to church doesn’t make you a Christian, any more than standing in a garage makes you a car.

Some people have asked me about Texas and why I say “I’m coming home”.  No, I’m not from Texas, I’m from God’s wasteland called Iowa.  I did live in Texas for a little less then a year.  I ended up living in New Mexico during my time in the Air Force. Being gone those four years, showed me that the mid west is two years behind everyone else.  I was stationed at Holloman AFB in Alamagordo. For anyone who’s been there, you know that it’s a boring city where you really can’t do shit but have sex, work and do drugs. I love the southwest.  The smell of the air when it’s about to rain.  The smell of the dirt when it’s raining, yes, it’s a thing.  I miss the food and the culture.  It’s where i fell in love with Chico’s Taco’s and Swisha House. I learned that Mike Jones was only a phone call away ( 2813308004).

During my time at Holloman, my boys and I would visit El Paso (specifically the bars) and we would visit Juarez  and go to the Derby for their drink and drown deals.  For those unfamiliar with drink and drown, it’s basically you pay $5 bucks and drink all night for free….and drink we sure did.

The southwest was home, even if it was just for those 4 years.  I passed up orders to Germany because I loved it there.  Well…to be honest, i passed up the orders because my girlfriend at the time was prego and I didn’t want to leave here by herself. But the southwest is where i wanted to raise our family.  Long story short, we ended up not having a child and that’s a whole other story.

My mom had asked me why I came back and not stay in New Mexico or TX, since all i do is complain about being here.   Honestly, I ask myself that question every day.  My wife and I are going back to Tx in a few months to visit an old military friend and who knows, maybe she’ll fall in love with it as much as I did.

 

 

yep….

It’s 1:40am and I have 100 things going through my head.  These pain killers are making sleepy but my diabetes is giving me the shakes.  I screwed up tonight by having pancakes for dinner and a piece of lemon pie for dessert.

I have started to do my videos again like I used to.  It’s easier for me to talk in front of the camera and just let my mouth run then to sit here and let my fingers type.  I’m not sure if that makes sense…i’m starting to fall into lala land.

I watched the republican debate tonight and everyone is so full of hot air, it’s ridiculous.  I’m leaning towards Trump (yes, i’ve caught hell for that one), Rubio and Sanders.  Trump didn’t debate tonight, instead he held a rally for veterans while raising money for us.  He raised $6 million, which is awesome.  I laugh when i see Jeb Bush. I think America is tired of the Bush’s and it shows in the polls.  Ted Cruz looks like the kind of guy who would watch you eat a grape at the grocery store and not say shit till you, but would run to management to get you in trouble.  I can’t look at Ben Carson without thinking of SNL.

I had two of my teeth pulled 2 weeks ago and one of them became infected.  Pissed me off because last week i went in with pain and the dentist said it looked good.  Then on Monday it felt like i got punched so i went in and he said yeah, you have an infection.  No shit sherlock.

Can’t wait to go to Texas in a few months.  Seeing some old military friends is going to be awesome. I’m hoping that my wifey likes it out there.  Hell, its Texas, what’s there not to like?  My boy is the kennel master at Lackland so he’s going to escort us on the base.  Im so excited to show my wife where i stayed for basic and tech school.

I plan on doing a video in a day or two which is going to be in all out bitch fest.  Should be fun.

Goodnight.

ps… follow me on twitter @cpt.serious19

1/23/15

Well, I had a job interview yesterday.  It was by far the hardest interview I have had.  I compared it to being in basic training and having the TI’s gang up on your during lunch, or as it is known in the Air Force, the Snake Pit.  The question’s weren’t very hard that they asked, but when a few of the interviewers  have put in 25+ years at this job, it’s kind of intimidating.  So, now i wait to see if it’s a go or not.  In the meantime, I’ll keep pushing out those applications.

I’ve stated before that I hate living in the Midwest.  I’ve lived here my entire life, with the exception of my time in the Air Force. For some reason though, I don’t consider it home. For me, the southwest is home.  People have asked me why I don’t just move there.  If it was only that easy.  My wifey has another year of school left for her bachelor’s, and I less than a year for my master’s.  Maybe, and that’s a BIG maybe, we’ll move on down there and give it a try for a year or two.  Of course, my main issue is family.  I know as soon as we were to get down there, someone here would get sick and we’d have to travel back.  My mother keeps wanting me to move to Missouri to be closer to her and my sister.  I’m like ma, that’s still the Midwest.

I did photography for a few years and miss it.  When i got hired on at CADS I sold all my equipment because being a supervisor and salary, I didn’t want to book a wedding or party then get called into work. My favorite part of photography was the editing and restoration of old pics. Here are a some of my pictures.   light2   1  h b d (3) IMG_3832 IMG_3871 mk 1-51 b3 d

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Yeah so, I sure do miss it.  I’d love to start up again, but two things are stopping me.  1) Photography is a very expensive job/hobby. 2) My wife says no.  lol  I understand where she is coming from though.  Camera’s, lighting, remotes, backdrops, website, props, extra lens’s and whatnot are not cheap.

Alright folks, back to these job apps.  And do me a favor, don’t steal my pics.