11/9/14

First things first…Cutler is a fkn idiot and needs to go. The Bears shouldn’t be this bad with all the good players on this team.

For some reason i think about death.  I mean, not really how I’ll die, but my funeral.  I guess it’s just planning ahead.  I’ve told my wife that I want to be cremated, with part of my ashes spread in alamogordo and the other part kept for her.  Of course though, she wasn’t going for it.  I then told her to have my ashes added to some tattoo ink and get a small tattoo in remembrance of me. Nope.  So then I said fk it, donate my body to the Body Farm.  The problem with that though is that is, it’s expensive to ship my ass from here to Tennessee.  I don’t really want a casket. I don’t see the point of paying all that money just to look good before you rot.  I’m going to get a military funeral since I’m a veteran and of course my wife will get the flag, but after that, just throw my body to the wolves.

The funny thing is, even though I don’t want an actual funeral, I do want music played.  I already have songs picked out.  1) I’ll fly with you by Gigi D’agostino 2)Broken Wings by Mister Mister 3) Father Figure by George Michael 4) My Way by Frank Sinatra 5)Chasing Cars by Snow Patrol and 6) My Immortal by Evanescence 7)Slippin by DMX 8) Celebration by Cool and the Gang.  I know you’re probably thinking ..why?  Each one of these songs has a special meaning to me which i won’t get into right now.

I know it’s crazy, but I also told my wife that if I do have to have a true funeral, I want my tattoos cut off and put in a case with formaldehyde to be put on display.  Again, like the songs, each tattoo tells a story.  Now, you and I both know that my wife wouldn’t do that, but I still think that would be pretty cool.  Plus, I spent a lot of money on them, why not show them off in frames?

Did i mention how much Cutler sucks balls.

Veterans Day is coming up and I think that all veterans should get a mandatory paid day off on that day.  When I say veteran, I’m not talking about all military men or women.  Only those that have been TDY or who are out of the service.  If you’re in the military and haven’t left the states, then really you’re not a veteran of anything.  I know some won’t agree with that but hey..whatever.

6/17/14

ImageWell shit….yep that’s how I feel.  Today sucked ass.  Why?  I don’t know, it just did.  I did have fun with my wifey tonight since we went to see 22 Jump Street which was very funny.  I was able to talk to a past client yesterday.  Wont give her name, but she is a pretty cool chick.  She thanked me for helping her during her rehabilitation by being someone she could talk to.  She told me that I was one of the reasons she was now sober.  I told her that she did not need to thank me, she is sober cause she chooses to be, I can’t take credit for that.  Im tired right now, not just physically, but mentally.  I complain about my back and how the VA sucks ass, but then I take a step back and think about all my “brothers and sisters” who are coming back from the war missing limbs or are mentally unfit to return to civilian life and realize that someone will always have it worse than you.  I hate the Midwest with a passion. This is probably a safe place cause I know terrorist wouldn’t waste a bomb on this shit hole.  I want to move to TX but my family is here. Every time I think of moving I start to think about my dad.  We wouldn’t be able to go to Hawk games like we do now if I moved. Then again, he and my mom would be able to come visit in awesome weather in TX when it snows here.  Plus I have all my little nieces and nephews that I want to see grow up.  I’m the oldest child so I didn’t have any other kids to play with like they do.  Nope it was just me until my sisters Jamie and Kali came along.