1/16/2015

I haven’t written in awhile because i have had a few things going on in my life.  Last Friday I went to work and was told by my supervisor to come to his office.  He asked me if I was happy with my job, which i replied yes.  He said well we have heard from some of your coworkers that you are not happy.  We are going to offer you two options.  Let you resign with 2 weeks pay, or __.  <— I left that blank because at the time, i didn’t know what that other option was.  So, he tells me to take the day off with pay and to come back at the end of the school day. So all day im thinking well shit, are they going to fire me? Are they giving me the chance to save face? Fast forward to the end of the school day, I go to his office with him, along with the principal and one of the new directors.  I asked what the other option was and they stated that I was not going to be fired.  I said well were is this coming from?  They proceed to pull out a copy of some blogs that I have written on here that dealt with the students. I said what the hell does someone get paid to read my shit all day?  Not once in any of my blogs do I call a student by their name, but I understood where they were coming from with it.  Mind you I was already talked to a week after Veterans Day because i made a post on facebook to our head company saying something like “what does a veteran have to do to get veterans day off” or some crap like that.  Again, nothing bad but they didn’t like it. I told the principal that no, I am not going to resign.  I said that I do however feel like if I don’t resign there will be a bulls eye on my back.  She said no, but this is it, if you mess up then you’re gone.  I felt that was fair enough, not a problem, let me get back to work on Monday. Here is the thing, during this conversation, the director who has only been there for a month was talking negative to me the entire time. It got to the point that the principal had to cut her off and tell her to keep on the matter at hand.  The director is not a bad lady, she is their for the kids and she wants to try something new.  What she failed to see or listen from others is that my coworkers and I had tried numerous times to try something new and were shot down.  I’ll be honest, it got to the point where I was just there for the kids and really didn’t care about anything else.  The thing that set me off the most and why I decided to put in my resignation, is that she said i was not a team player.  I think the fact that I came in on my days off, while not getting paid, to work on our school makes me a team player.   Telling my staff that i will get between them and a student so they don’t get hit and hurt, makes me a team player. Taking pictures of our open house grand opening, while not asking to get paid, makes me a team player. Just basically being their for the safety of my coworkers and keeping the kids from going off, makes me a team player. I was hoping that my supervisor would step in and stick up for me but that didn’t happen.  I told the director that i’m not going to walk around the school with a smile on my face 24/7, anyone that knows me can tell you i’m not like that.  I turned in my resignation and thanked them for the opportunity.  I was grateful that the principal let me come in on Monday and say goodbye to the kids.  I would love to go in and ask to resend my resignation.  I’m just afraid that if I do that and they say yes, I would sneeze the wrong way and get fired within a week.

School… can’t wait to be done with my masters.  My only regret that i am having right now is that i should stayed with business as my major.  Instead, I am doing healthcare administration.  I would like to end up working with the VA, so I’m guessing this degree along with my bachelors in business will probably workout well for me.

Speaking of school, what’s up with President Obama’s plan to make two years of community college free? This makes no sense.  Here are the issues that I see.  1) Who is going to be able to take advantage of this?  Is someone like myself who get school loans going to be able to do it?  Is there going to be a GPA requirement of let’s say 2.5.  What if Jimmy has a 2.5 one semester then a 2.3 the next.  Is he going to be able to continue under probation or be dropped.  If he gets the 2.3 does he need to repay that money.  2) College’s wont do this for free, so whose paying?  Are taxpayers going to foot the bill or will the government let schools use it as a tax incentive?  3) Having universities take credits from community colleges is a pain in the ass now. Will it get harder once it is free?  4) If you take advantage of the free two years, are you eligible to apply for grants and loans after the two years.  5) If you are already in college and lets say a junior, can you use one of those free years for your senior year or is it only the first two years?   I’m just not a fan of this. If tax payers are the ones who have to pay for this, then those of us who are in school currently or have graduated, will be paying not only our own loans, but others as well.  The only good thing other than someone getting an education is, this may cause other college’s or universities to lower their tuition.  They will be losing money if Jimmy says well I was going to go to UNI all four years, but if I can get two years free then transfer, i’ll do it.  Instead of one year at UNI being $17,000 for an instate freshman, they lower the cost to just under $10,000.

That’s it for now folks.

1/05/15

Well, today was the first day back at work in 2 weeks.  The kids seemed excited about being back, some of the teachers including myself, could have used a few more days off.  The students really were not that bad today with the exception of one, but even then, he just threw a fit more then anything.  Again, I have to remind myself that these kids are here because of behavioral issues and they are not going to change overnight.  Today though was the first time I called a student’s parent about his behavior.  It’s upsetting when you call a parent and they respond the same way the child would.  These kids are truly a product of their environment.  I have two students who I am going to miss the most whenever I decide to leave.  The one thinks she is a gangster, when really, she is smart but being smart isn’t cool in her “hood”.  The other kid was without a father figure for his entire life due to his dad being in prison.  His dad is out now and instead of trying to be a dad, he is trying to be the young boys friend.  This puts stress on mom.  She has acted as mother and father, being the disciplinary and the comfort.  Now dad is in the picture and wants to be the friend, this kid would of course rather listen to dad.  For some reason though, the mom as told me that my student comes home talking about me and how he respects and likes me.  It’s kind of funny because when I normally yell at someone all the time, they end up not liking me. Maybe he just likes the feeling that someone cares..then again, most of these kids probably feel the same.

I’m not at Starbucks writing this which is a change.  I’m at home waiting for my wifey to get here. The weather sucks…and she just walked in. 🙂  So yeah, the weather sucks and we are supposed to get 5-7 inches of snow.  I fkn hate snow.

I wish I could will the lottery.  I don’t even need to when $5 million, just like $500,000.  I know some people say mo money mo problems, but damn, mo money mo bills being paid. lol  I hate living paycheck to paycheck but hey, at least I’m getting a paycheck.  If I won $5 million, what would I do?  My wife and i have talked over this scenario many a times, even though we know the shit aint going to happen.  We would give our siblings a small chunk of change, probably like $20 grand each.  I’d make sure my nieces and nephews had a little for a graduation present.  Buy my parents and wifey’s parents new cars.  Then probably just put the rest in a CD or something.  Really when you think about it, $5 million is not a lot, but it is 5 million more than what i have now.

12/4/2014

So today the Terminator trailer came out and the only thing I can say…amazing.  Finally, a terminator movie that deals with not only the machines but also time travel.  I know that the first one leaned towards time travel, but it was never really part of the movie throughout.  Just thinking about it I had to rewatch it. lol

I have an interview in a few weeks at a healthcare facility.  I enjoy the job I have now, but money is money and this other job pays close to what I was making at CADS, plus it’s salary.  Of course I won’t count my chickens before they hatch, but I keep thinking about my students and how they will react. I have an awesome rapport with 99% of them and most of them know they can come to me for anything.  I guess that’s where my issue is.  Would I be just another person who has come into their lives, just to leave?

Let’s talk about minimum wage shall we?  I understand that it is hard to live off of $8.25 which is what it is here in Illinois.  I do understand however, that those $8.25 jobs are not meant as career jobs.  Of course you will have those that will say you should go to college and get a degree, then you’ll get paid more.  That’s true, but there are some who legit do not have the means to go to school.  I’ll use myself as an example.  After I am done with my masters degree, I’ll have to pay back around $150,000 which is about $800 a month.  I’m well off, have no kids, and my wife works, but I have no clue how the hell I’m going to pay that back.  Now imagine being a single mother or father, with no way of getting student loans because if they did they would have their other assistance cut off.  It’s a bullshit cycle. “College tuition and fees have increased 1,120 percent since records began in 1978. “(Bloomberg,2012) Personally, I think college should be free.  Why would you want to dumb down the young people of your nation? Anyways,back to the minimum wage, if you think you should get $15 for flipping my burger, you can eat a bowl of dicks.  Get two $8 jobs if you want to make more money.

Immigration reform.  It’s funny when people bring up immigration when I’m around.  Guess it’s cause i’m mexican and they think i’m all for it or it’s a sensitive subject.  I’m all for helping people out. I’m all for people coming here for a better life. But when you come here illegally to obtain the American Dream, then you’re fkn up my chance for the American Dream.  Using our resources for those that come here illegally is bullshit.  How the hell can someone come into this country illegally and get financed for a car, yet I can’t due to my credit.  I mean shit, I’ll go to mexico and sneak back in this bitch if that’s what it takes. It’s not just Mexicans, but we are the ones people think of.   I do think its funny though when people talk about rounding up all the illegals and sending them back.  I laugh cause that’s fkn impossible.  I also laugh when people say they are taking good paying jobs..um no.  I don’t know too many whites or blacks that will pick fruit from the fields, watch your kids, cut your grass, or clean your home for less than minimum wage.

“Goodbye” by Slipknot is a beautiful song.

This guy here at Starbucks sitting across the room from me is watching Twilight.  Who the hell goes to Starbucks to watch Twilight?

Christmas is right around the corner and let me tell ya, I fkn hate christmas music…with a fkn passion.  Like, my ears begin to bleed when this shit comes on the radio.  I’m not a fan of christmas anyways, but my wife loves it so I tend to put on a smile.  But every time christmas music come on, I want to shoot that fkn radio.

Whitney Houston has been sober for close to 3 years now….good for her.