Things on my Mind 5/19/16

I just left the chiropractor’s office after getting adjusted and really, I don’t feel a difference.  I understand that fixing a 16 year problem will not happen over night or in my case, four times, but just a little relief would be nice.  I do feel a little better about 10 minutes after the fact, but then it’s back to pain.  The VA said that I probably need surgery but they will not pay for it until i get into my 50’s.  They said i’m too young (36) right now to have to go through that.  I call bullshit, but then again ,it’s the VA and the shit they feed you has to be taken with a grain of salt.

Graduation is tomorrow and I’m both excited and worried.  Excited because i can finally say that I have a master’s degree but worried because I know that those student loans are going to be a bitch to repay back. Putting out resumes is kind of like fishing.  You throw out a hook and hope that the big one bites.  Unfortunately, sometimes it’s just a minnow.  Now granted, when you’ve been fishing all day, even a minnow can make you excited. Well, for as many resumes I have put out there, I’m beginning to think that the pond needs to be restocked.  I really can’t put all the blame on the pond of course, sometimes when you catch a decent sized fish, you throw it back, hoping for a bigger one.  That is my problem.  I’ve had a few good jobs, one that paid crazy good, yet I through it all away hoping for something better.  This of course does not look good on a resume.  Here’s the thing, I don’t leave a job for the sake of just being bored and leaving, but the jobs that i have had, have been physical and right now in my current condition, I just can’t do those types of jobs anymore.

Late last night/ early this morning there was a plane that was flying from Paris to Egypt that went missing from radar.  Trump tweeted out that it was terror related and of course the twitter police (Hillary and Bernie supporters) all tweeted how he was jumping the gun.  Funny thing though, this morning the Egyptian president said that it was terror related. So yeah, jumping the gun wasn’t so far fetched was it.

Banks have to be the biggest ripoffs.  I’ll use my bank as an example.  If I have $50 in my account and my kohls automatic bill pay is $55, my back will pay it, putting my account        -$5.  On top of that, they will charge me $27 for ISF which will bring it to -$32. Now lets say walmart automatic bill pay is $40.  Because my account is in the red, they will not pay it obviously.  However, they will still charge me $27 for ISF even though they will not pay it.  That leads it to -$59 in my account.  Walmart doesn’t know that there is no money, just that the payment didn’t go through, so they try it again.  And again the bank rejects it and tacks on another $27 for ISF. So now my original -$5 is -$86 all thanks to ISF fees.  Of course people will say that it is my own fault for not having the money in there, and yes, that is true, but life happens and sometimes you go through a rough patch.

Sitting here at Starbucks, I looked out the window and just saw a guy drop his food on the ground, look around, picked it up and put it in his mouth. 5 second rule I suppose.  But yeah, i’m not eating something that feel on the ground outside where people sit and possible have shit on their shoes.

I have more to talk about, but I just hit a writing wall.

3/24/2015

Currently, i’m sitting at Panera Bread typing this, not my usual Starbucks.  I feel like im cheating.  I just got back from picking up my nieces from school and dropping them off.  I had to go in with them to use the restroom and walked out with 5 packs of girl scout cookies.  wtf?

Still no job.  I do have an interview tomorrow.  But at 35, I’m looking for something I am going to stick with. Even while having a college education, bouncing around job to job does not look good.  I think that if I had children, I would have taken the job scene more seriously.  That’s not to say im not nervous about bills , but taking care of a kid would cost a hell of lot more than what my wife and I have to worry about right now.

Earlier there was a guy on the corner of the intersection asking for money.  As i’ve stated before, I usually give them a few bucks.  It’s funny when the person behind me gets mad when its a green light and i slow down to hand them the money.  I know I could be the one standing on the corner and i hope someone would stop for me.  The same person who is bitching at me for helping this guy is probably the same person who has no problem giving 10% of their check to their church.  I find it funny when people act as though they are “saved” just because they give a donation or attend church on the regular, yet act like they are better than others the rest of the time.  I hate that churches are not taxed.  If they were, this national debt would be cleared up in a heartbeat.

I’ve started reading up on the Church of Satan.  No, i’m not turning to Satan or plan on becoming a devil worshiper.  It’s a legit religion and I wanted to know more about it.  I did the same thing with Islam.  I will say the one thing I like about the Church of Satan is that it is not thrown in your face like Christianity or Catholicism. I remember back in the 80’s when Rivera did a “news” story about satan worship.  I watched it again, thanks to youtube and it was still comedy. No, you don’t have to drink blood or sacrifice a baby. lol

I don’t understand how people can pay these expensive ass prices here at Panera.

1/16/2015

I haven’t written in awhile because i have had a few things going on in my life.  Last Friday I went to work and was told by my supervisor to come to his office.  He asked me if I was happy with my job, which i replied yes.  He said well we have heard from some of your coworkers that you are not happy.  We are going to offer you two options.  Let you resign with 2 weeks pay, or __.  <— I left that blank because at the time, i didn’t know what that other option was.  So, he tells me to take the day off with pay and to come back at the end of the school day. So all day im thinking well shit, are they going to fire me? Are they giving me the chance to save face? Fast forward to the end of the school day, I go to his office with him, along with the principal and one of the new directors.  I asked what the other option was and they stated that I was not going to be fired.  I said well were is this coming from?  They proceed to pull out a copy of some blogs that I have written on here that dealt with the students. I said what the hell does someone get paid to read my shit all day?  Not once in any of my blogs do I call a student by their name, but I understood where they were coming from with it.  Mind you I was already talked to a week after Veterans Day because i made a post on facebook to our head company saying something like “what does a veteran have to do to get veterans day off” or some crap like that.  Again, nothing bad but they didn’t like it. I told the principal that no, I am not going to resign.  I said that I do however feel like if I don’t resign there will be a bulls eye on my back.  She said no, but this is it, if you mess up then you’re gone.  I felt that was fair enough, not a problem, let me get back to work on Monday. Here is the thing, during this conversation, the director who has only been there for a month was talking negative to me the entire time. It got to the point that the principal had to cut her off and tell her to keep on the matter at hand.  The director is not a bad lady, she is their for the kids and she wants to try something new.  What she failed to see or listen from others is that my coworkers and I had tried numerous times to try something new and were shot down.  I’ll be honest, it got to the point where I was just there for the kids and really didn’t care about anything else.  The thing that set me off the most and why I decided to put in my resignation, is that she said i was not a team player.  I think the fact that I came in on my days off, while not getting paid, to work on our school makes me a team player.   Telling my staff that i will get between them and a student so they don’t get hit and hurt, makes me a team player. Taking pictures of our open house grand opening, while not asking to get paid, makes me a team player. Just basically being their for the safety of my coworkers and keeping the kids from going off, makes me a team player. I was hoping that my supervisor would step in and stick up for me but that didn’t happen.  I told the director that i’m not going to walk around the school with a smile on my face 24/7, anyone that knows me can tell you i’m not like that.  I turned in my resignation and thanked them for the opportunity.  I was grateful that the principal let me come in on Monday and say goodbye to the kids.  I would love to go in and ask to resend my resignation.  I’m just afraid that if I do that and they say yes, I would sneeze the wrong way and get fired within a week.

School… can’t wait to be done with my masters.  My only regret that i am having right now is that i should stayed with business as my major.  Instead, I am doing healthcare administration.  I would like to end up working with the VA, so I’m guessing this degree along with my bachelors in business will probably workout well for me.

Speaking of school, what’s up with President Obama’s plan to make two years of community college free? This makes no sense.  Here are the issues that I see.  1) Who is going to be able to take advantage of this?  Is someone like myself who get school loans going to be able to do it?  Is there going to be a GPA requirement of let’s say 2.5.  What if Jimmy has a 2.5 one semester then a 2.3 the next.  Is he going to be able to continue under probation or be dropped.  If he gets the 2.3 does he need to repay that money.  2) College’s wont do this for free, so whose paying?  Are taxpayers going to foot the bill or will the government let schools use it as a tax incentive?  3) Having universities take credits from community colleges is a pain in the ass now. Will it get harder once it is free?  4) If you take advantage of the free two years, are you eligible to apply for grants and loans after the two years.  5) If you are already in college and lets say a junior, can you use one of those free years for your senior year or is it only the first two years?   I’m just not a fan of this. If tax payers are the ones who have to pay for this, then those of us who are in school currently or have graduated, will be paying not only our own loans, but others as well.  The only good thing other than someone getting an education is, this may cause other college’s or universities to lower their tuition.  They will be losing money if Jimmy says well I was going to go to UNI all four years, but if I can get two years free then transfer, i’ll do it.  Instead of one year at UNI being $17,000 for an instate freshman, they lower the cost to just under $10,000.

That’s it for now folks.

1/05/15

Well, today was the first day back at work in 2 weeks.  The kids seemed excited about being back, some of the teachers including myself, could have used a few more days off.  The students really were not that bad today with the exception of one, but even then, he just threw a fit more then anything.  Again, I have to remind myself that these kids are here because of behavioral issues and they are not going to change overnight.  Today though was the first time I called a student’s parent about his behavior.  It’s upsetting when you call a parent and they respond the same way the child would.  These kids are truly a product of their environment.  I have two students who I am going to miss the most whenever I decide to leave.  The one thinks she is a gangster, when really, she is smart but being smart isn’t cool in her “hood”.  The other kid was without a father figure for his entire life due to his dad being in prison.  His dad is out now and instead of trying to be a dad, he is trying to be the young boys friend.  This puts stress on mom.  She has acted as mother and father, being the disciplinary and the comfort.  Now dad is in the picture and wants to be the friend, this kid would of course rather listen to dad.  For some reason though, the mom as told me that my student comes home talking about me and how he respects and likes me.  It’s kind of funny because when I normally yell at someone all the time, they end up not liking me. Maybe he just likes the feeling that someone cares..then again, most of these kids probably feel the same.

I’m not at Starbucks writing this which is a change.  I’m at home waiting for my wifey to get here. The weather sucks…and she just walked in. 🙂  So yeah, the weather sucks and we are supposed to get 5-7 inches of snow.  I fkn hate snow.

I wish I could will the lottery.  I don’t even need to when $5 million, just like $500,000.  I know some people say mo money mo problems, but damn, mo money mo bills being paid. lol  I hate living paycheck to paycheck but hey, at least I’m getting a paycheck.  If I won $5 million, what would I do?  My wife and i have talked over this scenario many a times, even though we know the shit aint going to happen.  We would give our siblings a small chunk of change, probably like $20 grand each.  I’d make sure my nieces and nephews had a little for a graduation present.  Buy my parents and wifey’s parents new cars.  Then probably just put the rest in a CD or something.  Really when you think about it, $5 million is not a lot, but it is 5 million more than what i have now.

12/16/2014

Its funny how I can remember a song lyric from 25 years ago..as I’m singing father figure by George Micheal, yet I can’t remember a damn password for a log in that I just created two days ago.

1471400_10152885691579326_3214522366375465497_n I bought myself a new toy last week. Do I know how to play it? No.  Do I have the patience to learn? Hell no.  Why did I buy it?  No fkn clue.  I think it’s more therapeutic than anything. You get to hit something and make sounds.  Laugh if you want, but the shit works.

I’ve had vertigo for the past few weeks.  Thankfully off and on and not everyday.  I have to give it to those who suffer from it everyday.  It’s like having a really bad hangover. I wish there was a pill I could take to stop the damn room from spinning.  Normally when you’re not feeling well, you can lay down, but damn, as soon as you close your eyes, the spinning sensation comes to play.

I was watching a video about these people who waited in line at a Houston mall for the new Jordan shoes to be released. There was reports of fighting and shots fired, all over a shoe that bares the name of a man that could give two shits about you.  Seriously, I could do is laugh. This young generation is so materialistic that it’s sad.  I bet if footlocker were to attach a job application to the box, that line would be cut in half.  Of course that’s just ignorant of me to say, I’m sure that those in line took the day off from work to get these must have shoes …but who am I kidding?

The one thing I’m grateful for growing up was that my parents didn’t make it about brand names.  I remember I wanted those damn Reebok Pumps so bad and my dad bought me Hoops instead which were a generic type of Pumps.  Boy was I mad…if I could have said “what the fuck” when I was 10, I probably would have.  But now that I’m older, I have to laugh about it.  There is no way in hell that I’m paying $100 for brand named shoes for my nieces and nephews. Shit I won’t even spend that on a pair of shoes for myself now.  If their parents want to spend that on them, so be it, it’s their money.  But uncle Robert just can’t do it. lol

I got talked to at work about the way that I handled a student who was getting mouthy with the teacher.  A coworker of mine went to the principle (our boss) and told her that i threw a kid into one of the rooms and held him against the wall.  Thankfully, I had three other people there to witness what actually happened. I was not mad that the coworker went and said something, it just shows she is caring for the well being of the student.  What I was pissed about was she didn’t come to me about it or go to the assistant principle who is technically our supervisor (chain of command).  I’m a confrontational kind of person.  If you mess up or I think you messed up, I’m going to you. I know that not all people are like that, oh well.

10/16/14

Here’s an old post from July of 2012 that i had on my other blog.

July 9, 2012 by rgonzalesjr
Downloading is not killing the movie and music industry, Viacom, record labels and studios did. Viacom owns/operates 150 stations which includes MTV, VH1, CMT, MTV2,BET, etc. Once they stopped playing music videos, people lost track of what was new and what they liked. You could turn on MTV in the 80’s and 90’s for the entire day and have a list of songs that you knew you were going to go out and buy. Now, you turn on MTV and you see this stupid crap I’m watching and dumb ass Teen Mom. As for the record labels, they let artist put out garbage now. Look at Dr. Dre’s Chronic. It is by far one of the greatest rap cd’s every made. Why? Because every song is good. Or we can look at Micheal Jackson’s Thriller album. 80 consecutive weeks on the charts, 37 of those at #1. Every song on that album is a class. Now look at current cd’s. Maybe 14 tracks, with 5 of them being just the artist talking. That leaves 11 songs, where maybe 4 of them are good. Why pay 9.99 for 14 tracks when only 4 of them are decent? For the record labels to say that downloading is making them lose money is b.s. If that was the case, tape recorders, cd burners would be illegal. Whats the difference between me recording a song from the radio and me downloading a song from the pirate bay? Not a damn thing. Radio stations pay a licensing fee to those music labels so they can broadcast the songs. So either way, the companies are getting paid. As for movie studios complaining about people downloading movies, here is a thought…lower the price of tickets. Most of us have a second run movie theater in the area. Why can they charge only $5 which usually includes a small pop and small popcorn? Yet, when I see a movie as soon as it comes out, I’m going to pay about $80-$100 bucks for a family of 4. One way studios can offset the money they are losing is to offer the first run movies on PPV or Netflix. I think families would pay to watch first run movies at home. Honestly, the $80 bucks I would spend at the theater, I would use to order the movies. Movie studios would still get their money and we wouldn’t have to pack the entire family into a car. Just sayin….