Today sucks balls. I have that “i don’t give a shit” attitude right now and I know that’s not good.
First issue of the day, let’s talk about school. I have one class left for my masters degree. Guess who ran out of financial aid money? This guy. So not only do I have to pay uncle sam back for this bs degree, but now i have to pay out of pocket for my last class. I damn near begged my school for a scholarship, but they weren’t having it. Basically it’s shit in one hand, wish in the other. I have no idea what i’m going to do with this degree other than hang the paper on the wall next to my bachelors.
So here I am, creating a gofundme account for $1700 bucks to help pay for my last term and not a single donation. (Mind you, i’m not working right now and only get my military disability as income, and i deleted that go fund me account). Yet, this arrogant fuck, Kanye West can whine that he is $53 million in debt and some ass tard sets him up a go fund me and it reached a little over $8000 as of this writing. Society has their priorities fucked.
Speaking of school, for my class I just had, I had to make a bullshit marketing billboard that dealt with suicide awareness and come up with a name for it. I felt this assignment was a joke, so i treated it as such.
Second issue of the day is the damn TSA. I’m still waiting on a response from them on if I’ll be able to move on to the next step of the job qualifications. They had to put my medical on hold due to my diabetes. They said i had to get a pass from my doctor saying that i was in ok health with diabetes. My doctor passed me and now i’ve been waiting for a month to find out the results from TSA. I understand that with it being a federal job, it’s going to be hurry up and wait like the military was.
Third issue of the day. I spoke to my dad again yesterday about the possibility of moving to TX. He said “well son, you have to do what you have to do”. That’s the problem, if i did what i had to do, I would have robbed a fkn bank already…can’t pay the bills with monopoly money. As much as i talk about wanting to move to TX, the big problem I have is that I have so many relatives that are getting up there in age, I don’t want to get a phone call saying one passed, then having to come up with funds to fly back here. This leads me to my fourth issue of the day.
Fourth issue of the day. Death is inevitable. I was at my aunt’s house last night where my grandparents live. While there, my grandpa said something to my aunt that really struck a chord with me. I won’t say what is was, but it further cemented the truth that people are only here for certain amout of time…then poof you’re gone. It would be nice to have people in your life forever, but physically it’s not possible. Of course you can be hooked up to a machine and let it live for you,but it’s just a body, not a person. Its funny that here i am worried about how I or my family is going to be when other people in our family passes, when after I write this blog, I could get into a head on collision and….