Eat a bowl of dicks, two scoops.

Well this is the end of 2015 and it’s time for my “Eat a bowl of dicks, two scoops” list.

5.  My chicago bears.  Talk about a goddamn wasted season.  The Bears will not win a Superbowl with Cutler, just as the Bulls will not win the NBA title with Rose.

4.  The word “racist”.  Just because I agree with the court system when they find someone guilty or not guilty when that person is of another race, that does not make me a racist.  It makes me someone who has faith in our judicial system.  Also, a black serving on the jury who convicts another black does not make them an Uncle Tom.  It shows that they looked at the evidence and were smart enough to put their personal views to the back.

3. ISIS. You don’t have to blow up shit to scare people, just make threats and schools or business’s will close for the day.  Aslo Stupid ass people who think its funny to call in these bomb threats or shootings as a prank.

2. Black Lives Matter.  See prior blog posting.

1. Me…  Yes, I included myself in this award due to the fact that I screwed up some pretty good things that I had this year. An old supervisor once told me that i have to learn to let shit go over my head and not take shit personally.  A few times this year, I had something good that i let slip away because of my own ignorance.  Well, lesson learned.  Remember this though, if you burn bridges, you can always take a boat.

Totally off subject, this is how bored I am at starbucks.  Here is my star wars Finn subliminal message.  So im sitting here in starbucks thinking about starwars. Anyways, I was just looking at Finn’s name in Starwars, FN2187. 187 is the california code for murder. FN I read as finna as in “im finna write some dumb shit”. 2, is obviously to. So if we slang up finna to just fin, then we have fin to (da) murder. Fin da murder. Even in a galaxy far far away we still stereotyping blacks. lol Mind blown and im drinking too much caffeine.

 

Things on my mind. 12/29/15

Well hopefully everyone had a good Christmas.  I’m not one that enjoys Christmas time.  Not for religious reasons, just because I’m not a fan of all the festive crap.  I think as you get older, Christmas time is more of a hassle anyways. Should i get this person this, will this person like this gift, should i get them a gift card or just money? It’s a pain in the ass really.

This weather sucks right now.  No snow for Christmas and it was around 40 degrees which is awesome.  Then, out of nowhere we get ice and snow for the past two days.  Can’t really complain though, New Mexico and Texas got hit with snow, earthquakes and tornadoes.  Someone pissed god off.

I was able to see the Stanley Cup a few months ago at the Blackhawks convention.  Of course while I was there, I had to kiss it.  I mean really, when would be the next time I would be able to see and touch such a kick ass trophy? Well that question was answered this past weekend when I was able to get my picture taken twice with it at different locations.  Yeah, I was cheesy and I didn’t give a fk. 10274283_10153766376394326_4426074061033183562_n

CNN wrote some bullshit news story about Rob Kardashian going to the hospital for diabetes.  I commented “I have diabetes too. I must have missed that report CNN ran for me.”  2 hours later, its up to 600 likes.  Guess I made a few people laugh.  I’m tired of seeing stupid ass stories like this on a “news” channel. I find myself watching Fox now more then ever simply because they don’t air stupid shit like this.  I always thought of Fox News as the old white guy racist channel. But honestly, after watching it for awhile, it’s not bad.  The one thing I will say about CNN, they love to act as a race bait.

Black Lives Matter.  This damn group is going about their protest the wrong way.  I’m all for people protesting, it’s our right. But when you are protesting, even peacefully, you can still do more harm then good.  Perfect example.  If you’re going to protest BLM and you are shutting down a highway, freeway or streets, the only thing you’re doing is building more animosity.  People want to get to work, people need to pick up their kids, people need to get to the hospital.  If my family member is on their death bed, with only a few hours to live and i’m stuck on a freeway due to your protest, I’m going to be anti whatever organization you’re with.  On the opposite side of the coin.  Why, as a driver, do you stop?  That question alone reminds me of Reginald Denny.  You’re in this big ass semi and you stop?  What good could come from that?  Bet when he was getting that brick against his head, he was thinking…why did i stop?  I will say that i find it funny that the same people who counter the Black Lives Matter by saying All Lives Matter, are the first ones who say no to having refugees in the US.

2016 is two days away.  Normally this is when I would think about a new years resolution.  This year is different though.  I think that this is going to be the year of Health.  As of right now, i’m a 36 year old guy in a 97 year old body.  I know that i have to take better care of my body before it’s too late.  Being a diabetic, I don’t want to lose my legs or my eyes.  I don’t want my wife to have to put my pic in the obituary before i turn 40.  I’m just going to take it one day at a time.

Whitney Houston is coming up on her 4 year sober anniversary.

I’m having writers block.  I have a million things going through my head right now and it seems like they all want to come out and can’t.  I’ts like having an hour glass filled with marbles.  For some strange reason a few poems that I wrote about 10 years ago popped into my head this morning.  I used to have a notebook that had all my writings, but it was lost when I moved.  One of my poems that I wrote was actually published in a poetry book…wish I could remember which one.  I do remember my mom not believing that they were my original work.  Can’t really blame her though, I mean I surprised myself sometimes with them.  Here are three from the top of my head.

1.

Have you ever wondered what it would feel like to be dead,

Total silence, total darkness, bugs crawling on your head.

Nothing to do day after day , but just lay there and feel your body decay.

Wondering if your soul will go to heaven or hell,

the way you’ve lived your life, you really can’t tell.

Then you breath a sigh of relief , and praise God that you are alive.

But to your surprise, you begin to realize,

there is total silence, total darkness…

and something is crawling in your ear!

2.

The little child is awaken by the monster at night,

tears roll down the child’s face from the fright.

The monster tells the child “you will not get hurt,now close your eyes”,

but the little child knows that monsters tell lies.

The big men monster touches the child,

the big mean monster does this for awhile.

The big mean monster gets up to leave the room, looking all happy.

As the little child says “goodnight daddy”.

3.

Death comes and goes, when will it be your time? Only God knows.

Don’t morn over your loved one who has passed away,

you’ll be able to see them again someday.

So dry those tears from your eyes,

say “i’ll see you soon”, not “goodbye.

Because death come and goes, when will it be your time? Only God knows.

Let’s get one thing straight, I never claimed to be Dr. Seuss or Stephen King when it comes to writing.  I like reading poetry because it’s a play on words.  Something else that came to mind for some strange reason is a short story by Ernest Hemingway called “Hills Like White Elephants”.  It doesn’t necessarily have a play with words, but makes you think and somewhat makes you build a relationship with Jig.

Alright, that’s all for now.