1/28/15

I made a comment on facebook to my mom about her and my dad getting me Slipknot tickets for Cedar Rapids concert.  Well, last night my dad said, hey we got you an early birthday present. Yep, two tickets to see Slipknot with Hatebreed.  I just saw Slipknot back in Nov and I said I would love to see them again, it was such an awesome concert.  This time though, as i stated, they will be with Hatebreed and not Korn. I was not too familiar with Hatebreed so today, while filling out applications, I have been listening to them via youtube.  They have a heavy sound to them which I love so it should be a pretty good show.  Needless to say, i’m very excited to see them again and thankful to my parents for the early birthday gift.

Of course I’m at Starbucks and this peach tranquility tea I just bought smells amazing.  Usually I order my teas online.  San Benito is the name of the company  and their peach teas are awesome.  I first had the when I was stationed in Kuwait. They are based out of Italy, so when i place the order online I always try to find a distributor here in the US.  Funny thing is, I pay more for the damn shipping than I do for the tea itself.

I had a job interview the other day for a detention officer for the state of IA. I am looking more for a job where I can use my business admin bachelor’s degree.  Don’t get me wrong, the detention officer job would be great, but I’m kind of tired of being in the babysitter role. Plus, I think about being married now and I don’t want her to have to worry about me.

Superbowl is this weekend.  Seattle over New England 35-24

Wrestling Fans Lash Out With ‘#CancelWWENetwork’

Exactly

TIME

Wrestling fans were seething after the World Wrestling Entertainment’s annual Royal Rumble event came to what appears to be an unsatisfactory end in Philadelphia on Sunday night.

After Roman Reigns emerged victorious for the evening’s highly anticipated battle royal finale, fans sounded off in mass on social media outlets with the hashtag: “#CancelWWENetwork” that was trending worldwide by the night’s end.

According to wrestling blogs, spectators at the event were chanting for refunds as rumors swirled that the WWE Network cancellation page had crashed as fans bombarded the site.

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1/23/15

Well, I had a job interview yesterday.  It was by far the hardest interview I have had.  I compared it to being in basic training and having the TI’s gang up on your during lunch, or as it is known in the Air Force, the Snake Pit.  The question’s weren’t very hard that they asked, but when a few of the interviewers  have put in 25+ years at this job, it’s kind of intimidating.  So, now i wait to see if it’s a go or not.  In the meantime, I’ll keep pushing out those applications.

I’ve stated before that I hate living in the Midwest.  I’ve lived here my entire life, with the exception of my time in the Air Force. For some reason though, I don’t consider it home. For me, the southwest is home.  People have asked me why I don’t just move there.  If it was only that easy.  My wifey has another year of school left for her bachelor’s, and I less than a year for my master’s.  Maybe, and that’s a BIG maybe, we’ll move on down there and give it a try for a year or two.  Of course, my main issue is family.  I know as soon as we were to get down there, someone here would get sick and we’d have to travel back.  My mother keeps wanting me to move to Missouri to be closer to her and my sister.  I’m like ma, that’s still the Midwest.

I did photography for a few years and miss it.  When i got hired on at CADS I sold all my equipment because being a supervisor and salary, I didn’t want to book a wedding or party then get called into work. My favorite part of photography was the editing and restoration of old pics. Here are a some of my pictures.   light2   1  h b d (3) IMG_3832 IMG_3871 mk 1-51 b3 d

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Yeah so, I sure do miss it.  I’d love to start up again, but two things are stopping me.  1) Photography is a very expensive job/hobby. 2) My wife says no.  lol  I understand where she is coming from though.  Camera’s, lighting, remotes, backdrops, website, props, extra lens’s and whatnot are not cheap.

Alright folks, back to these job apps.  And do me a favor, don’t steal my pics.

1/16/2015

I haven’t written in awhile because i have had a few things going on in my life.  Last Friday I went to work and was told by my supervisor to come to his office.  He asked me if I was happy with my job, which i replied yes.  He said well we have heard from some of your coworkers that you are not happy.  We are going to offer you two options.  Let you resign with 2 weeks pay, or __.  <— I left that blank because at the time, i didn’t know what that other option was.  So, he tells me to take the day off with pay and to come back at the end of the school day. So all day im thinking well shit, are they going to fire me? Are they giving me the chance to save face? Fast forward to the end of the school day, I go to his office with him, along with the principal and one of the new directors.  I asked what the other option was and they stated that I was not going to be fired.  I said well were is this coming from?  They proceed to pull out a copy of some blogs that I have written on here that dealt with the students. I said what the hell does someone get paid to read my shit all day?  Not once in any of my blogs do I call a student by their name, but I understood where they were coming from with it.  Mind you I was already talked to a week after Veterans Day because i made a post on facebook to our head company saying something like “what does a veteran have to do to get veterans day off” or some crap like that.  Again, nothing bad but they didn’t like it. I told the principal that no, I am not going to resign.  I said that I do however feel like if I don’t resign there will be a bulls eye on my back.  She said no, but this is it, if you mess up then you’re gone.  I felt that was fair enough, not a problem, let me get back to work on Monday. Here is the thing, during this conversation, the director who has only been there for a month was talking negative to me the entire time. It got to the point that the principal had to cut her off and tell her to keep on the matter at hand.  The director is not a bad lady, she is their for the kids and she wants to try something new.  What she failed to see or listen from others is that my coworkers and I had tried numerous times to try something new and were shot down.  I’ll be honest, it got to the point where I was just there for the kids and really didn’t care about anything else.  The thing that set me off the most and why I decided to put in my resignation, is that she said i was not a team player.  I think the fact that I came in on my days off, while not getting paid, to work on our school makes me a team player.   Telling my staff that i will get between them and a student so they don’t get hit and hurt, makes me a team player. Taking pictures of our open house grand opening, while not asking to get paid, makes me a team player. Just basically being their for the safety of my coworkers and keeping the kids from going off, makes me a team player. I was hoping that my supervisor would step in and stick up for me but that didn’t happen.  I told the director that i’m not going to walk around the school with a smile on my face 24/7, anyone that knows me can tell you i’m not like that.  I turned in my resignation and thanked them for the opportunity.  I was grateful that the principal let me come in on Monday and say goodbye to the kids.  I would love to go in and ask to resend my resignation.  I’m just afraid that if I do that and they say yes, I would sneeze the wrong way and get fired within a week.

School… can’t wait to be done with my masters.  My only regret that i am having right now is that i should stayed with business as my major.  Instead, I am doing healthcare administration.  I would like to end up working with the VA, so I’m guessing this degree along with my bachelors in business will probably workout well for me.

Speaking of school, what’s up with President Obama’s plan to make two years of community college free? This makes no sense.  Here are the issues that I see.  1) Who is going to be able to take advantage of this?  Is someone like myself who get school loans going to be able to do it?  Is there going to be a GPA requirement of let’s say 2.5.  What if Jimmy has a 2.5 one semester then a 2.3 the next.  Is he going to be able to continue under probation or be dropped.  If he gets the 2.3 does he need to repay that money.  2) College’s wont do this for free, so whose paying?  Are taxpayers going to foot the bill or will the government let schools use it as a tax incentive?  3) Having universities take credits from community colleges is a pain in the ass now. Will it get harder once it is free?  4) If you take advantage of the free two years, are you eligible to apply for grants and loans after the two years.  5) If you are already in college and lets say a junior, can you use one of those free years for your senior year or is it only the first two years?   I’m just not a fan of this. If tax payers are the ones who have to pay for this, then those of us who are in school currently or have graduated, will be paying not only our own loans, but others as well.  The only good thing other than someone getting an education is, this may cause other college’s or universities to lower their tuition.  They will be losing money if Jimmy says well I was going to go to UNI all four years, but if I can get two years free then transfer, i’ll do it.  Instead of one year at UNI being $17,000 for an instate freshman, they lower the cost to just under $10,000.

That’s it for now folks.

1/05/15

Well, today was the first day back at work in 2 weeks.  The kids seemed excited about being back, some of the teachers including myself, could have used a few more days off.  The students really were not that bad today with the exception of one, but even then, he just threw a fit more then anything.  Again, I have to remind myself that these kids are here because of behavioral issues and they are not going to change overnight.  Today though was the first time I called a student’s parent about his behavior.  It’s upsetting when you call a parent and they respond the same way the child would.  These kids are truly a product of their environment.  I have two students who I am going to miss the most whenever I decide to leave.  The one thinks she is a gangster, when really, she is smart but being smart isn’t cool in her “hood”.  The other kid was without a father figure for his entire life due to his dad being in prison.  His dad is out now and instead of trying to be a dad, he is trying to be the young boys friend.  This puts stress on mom.  She has acted as mother and father, being the disciplinary and the comfort.  Now dad is in the picture and wants to be the friend, this kid would of course rather listen to dad.  For some reason though, the mom as told me that my student comes home talking about me and how he respects and likes me.  It’s kind of funny because when I normally yell at someone all the time, they end up not liking me. Maybe he just likes the feeling that someone cares..then again, most of these kids probably feel the same.

I’m not at Starbucks writing this which is a change.  I’m at home waiting for my wifey to get here. The weather sucks…and she just walked in. 🙂  So yeah, the weather sucks and we are supposed to get 5-7 inches of snow.  I fkn hate snow.

I wish I could will the lottery.  I don’t even need to when $5 million, just like $500,000.  I know some people say mo money mo problems, but damn, mo money mo bills being paid. lol  I hate living paycheck to paycheck but hey, at least I’m getting a paycheck.  If I won $5 million, what would I do?  My wife and i have talked over this scenario many a times, even though we know the shit aint going to happen.  We would give our siblings a small chunk of change, probably like $20 grand each.  I’d make sure my nieces and nephews had a little for a graduation present.  Buy my parents and wifey’s parents new cars.  Then probably just put the rest in a CD or something.  Really when you think about it, $5 million is not a lot, but it is 5 million more than what i have now.

1/4/15

Mother Nature has a sense of humor. It was warm enough yesterday to not have to wear a winter coat, but then this crap. 7dayFULL I hate living in the Midwest with a passion.  I want to go back to TX but hell, even they are getting snow.  The bad thing about it snowing, just as it is now, is that people want to drive like fkn idiots.  There are three rules to remember when driving in snow. 1) Dont get hit. 2) Dont hit someone else. 3) Drive.  Some people want to drive like they are tip toeing into the kitchen at midnight.  I’m all for being safe of course, but damn if you don’t go you’re going to get stuck.

Stuart Scott passed away today.  I was never a fan of his really, but he was a good personality for ESPN. Glad that he was able to make it through the holidays for his daughters.

10891459_10152947488434326_7544235468520997051_nBack to this bullshit snow.  I look out of this Starbucks window thinking, why the fk am I here and not in the comfort of my bed? And of all the bullshit things I buy, why haven’t I bought a car starter?  It is nice though being here and not having anyone around me.  Just me, Venti pumpkin spice latte and Dido.

didobioI played Dido’s CD nonstop when I was overseas.  I remember my tent mate yelling at me to shut it off cause I played it so much.  This would be played in my tent and Outkast would be playing everywhere else.  At post..outkast.  On our way to Kuwait City..outkast.  Chowhall..Outkast.  They had a song, “Bombs Over Baghdad” that the Kuwait’s would dance to.  One of the Kuwait Officers heard me play it, reached in his shirt and pulled out a cross necklace.  He kept saying “SEE, I’M CHRISTMAS, I’M CHRISTMAS!”  I said you mean Christian.  “YES, CHRISTMAS!”  Okay then. lol

I go back to work tomorrow, after a 2 week vacation.  Honestly, I don’t want to go back. Not because of the kids, I love them and their craziness.  But because I don’t get paid shit really for all the stress we have.  I know, something is better than nothing but I could seriously go work at Aldi’s and bag groceries and make more than what I do now. I’m hoping to get a phone call tomorrow with some good news that will better this situation.

Break Free by Ruby Rose= beautiful song, check her out.

Let me ask a question.  In life, your main objective is to have kids and pass on that bloodline.  What if you can’t have kids?  Then what is the meaning to life?  You wake up, eat, shit, work, sleep, repeat.  You really don’t have a purpose anymore.  The bloodline stops with you.  If you were fortunate enough, your parents tried to raise you in a way in which you will be a great parent to your own kids and pass on traditions. I think about all the things I was able to give my parents, everything but a grandchild.  When my sister got pregnant at 15, I had some animosity toward her kid.  You mean to tell me God will give a kid to a 15 year old girl, but not two adults who have good jobs, are caring, and want kids?  I think that’s why my belief in God is so null.  I believe Jesus was a man who did walk this Earth. I don’t believe the miracle stuff though.  I’m just not buying the whole God created man and the universe shit.  Maybe it’s the fact that I had to go to a Catholic School and the shit was stuffed down my throat, that now I’m like eh.

Well folks I think its time for me to go.  There is a creepy dude sitting across the room staring at me like he wants my nuts.

1/2/15

Well, it’s 9:38am.  I wanted to be at the gym at 8am.  Now I know people usually do the gym thing right after new years, but as I stated in my last post, this is not a resolution.  I want to go because of my health.  I’m diabetic and my body has been feeling like shit.  Blurry vision, back pain from the military, dizziness, vertigo, stomach issues, yada yada yada.  So now I sit here an hour and thirty eight minutes after the target time. I could use that as an excuse and just say there is always tomorrow.  But, just like me being a cubs fan and saying wait till next year, tomorrow may not come.

Before I go, I was talking to my wifey the other night about how you look back at shit and wonder how things would have played out if you did things differently.  I was a very bad gambler.  We’re talking cash my paycheck on the boat and play till you have nothing left gambling.  I owe  a lot to my sister for letting me live with her and her husband, even if my “bedroom” was a couch on their basement.  I mean really, after the service and being a corrections officer, I didn’t have shit thanks to gambling.  Believe me that shit created a lot of arguments between me, friends and family.  When I worked at Center for Alcohol and Drug Services, the clients asked if i was a recovering addict like them.  Well, yes, to a point.  Gambling was my drug.  The same uneasiness you experienced when that pipe was getting lit and then the calm serenity after you took that breath, is what I felt when i pulled that lever on the slot machine.  It wasn’t until my dad called 1800 Bets Off that I stopped.  Believe me, it wasn’t by choice.  I had to go to meetings, I had to get my picture taken at each of the casinos and I was banned for life from all casinos in Iowa and IL.  So again, I look back and think goddamn had you put that money towards your bills and not the slot machine, you’d have damn near perfect credit.  O’well, like I’ve told my students, your eyes are on your face because you are supposed to look forward…

Off to the gym I go.