12/16/2014

Its funny how I can remember a song lyric from 25 years ago..as I’m singing father figure by George Micheal, yet I can’t remember a damn password for a log in that I just created two days ago.

1471400_10152885691579326_3214522366375465497_n I bought myself a new toy last week. Do I know how to play it? No.  Do I have the patience to learn? Hell no.  Why did I buy it?  No fkn clue.  I think it’s more therapeutic than anything. You get to hit something and make sounds.  Laugh if you want, but the shit works.

I’ve had vertigo for the past few weeks.  Thankfully off and on and not everyday.  I have to give it to those who suffer from it everyday.  It’s like having a really bad hangover. I wish there was a pill I could take to stop the damn room from spinning.  Normally when you’re not feeling well, you can lay down, but damn, as soon as you close your eyes, the spinning sensation comes to play.

I was watching a video about these people who waited in line at a Houston mall for the new Jordan shoes to be released. There was reports of fighting and shots fired, all over a shoe that bares the name of a man that could give two shits about you.  Seriously, I could do is laugh. This young generation is so materialistic that it’s sad.  I bet if footlocker were to attach a job application to the box, that line would be cut in half.  Of course that’s just ignorant of me to say, I’m sure that those in line took the day off from work to get these must have shoes …but who am I kidding?

The one thing I’m grateful for growing up was that my parents didn’t make it about brand names.  I remember I wanted those damn Reebok Pumps so bad and my dad bought me Hoops instead which were a generic type of Pumps.  Boy was I mad…if I could have said “what the fuck” when I was 10, I probably would have.  But now that I’m older, I have to laugh about it.  There is no way in hell that I’m paying $100 for brand named shoes for my nieces and nephews. Shit I won’t even spend that on a pair of shoes for myself now.  If their parents want to spend that on them, so be it, it’s their money.  But uncle Robert just can’t do it. lol

I got talked to at work about the way that I handled a student who was getting mouthy with the teacher.  A coworker of mine went to the principle (our boss) and told her that i threw a kid into one of the rooms and held him against the wall.  Thankfully, I had three other people there to witness what actually happened. I was not mad that the coworker went and said something, it just shows she is caring for the well being of the student.  What I was pissed about was she didn’t come to me about it or go to the assistant principle who is technically our supervisor (chain of command).  I’m a confrontational kind of person.  If you mess up or I think you messed up, I’m going to you. I know that not all people are like that, oh well.

12/7/2014

So…it’s 0157 in the morning.  Why am I up? No clue.  Friday at work was a day from hell.  I kind of feel bad for the kids because i know that my correctional officer attitude was kicking in.  I have to remind myself that these kids are here for a reason and we are there because regular school doesn’t help.

I have a lot that I want to type, but my mind is going in different directions.  I guess I’ll start with Mike “Hands up dont shoot” Brown vs Eric “I can’t breath” Garner.  When it comes to Mike, I can’t feel bad for the guy.  If you try to attack a cop..you’re gonna have a bad time.  Plan and simple…if  you don’t wanna get shot, do what the officer says.  Of course you want to think that the officer would have used non lethal alternatives, but I wasn’t in that officers shoes. People now think they are forensic experts and law professors, due to them watching a few episodes of Law & Order SVU or CSI Miami.  I watched ER and Grey’s Anatomy, that doesn’t make me a doctor.  Science proves that Mike Brown attacked that officer, that should be it.  Ironically, had Brown just put his damn hands up in the first place, he’d probably still be here.  Now on to Eric Garner.  Have you ever “choked” on a piece of food and started coughing bad to get it up.  Well then, if you’re breathing enough to cough, you ain’t choking.  Same principle applies here.  Eric kept saying ” I can’t breath”.  If I was that officer, I’d think “if you’re talking, you can breath”. I will say that I do feel bad for Eric, the officer should have taken that saying into consideration and perhaps tried a different position.   The problem that I have right now is that 99% of police officers are good people, but goddamn it, for some reason that 1% can’t get out of the damn spotlight.  Another problem I have is President Obama putting his two cents in.  I understand that being black, he probably feels the pressure to say something. However, let’s talk about the black on black crime we have going on too, not just the white/black crap.  Hell, another part of the problem are the fkn idiots that want to try to provoke an officer, just so they can record their reaction.  Unfortunately in today’s world the cell phone camera is as dangerous as a gun.  I don’t know if it was that my father was a sheriff’s deputy, or my two uncles are officers, or that I was law enforcement in the military but if you don’t listen to an officers orders and are a threat or you try to attack an officer, then you deserve to get your ass shot.

GoldsberryI’m a Bulls fan for life, but this ignorant motherfkr here is on my last nerve.  As you can see, Rose is wearing an “I can’t breath” shirt to support Eric Garner.  What Rose should be wearing is a shirt that says ” I can’t play”.  If I was the GM, I’d fine him close to $100,000 for wearing that.  But of course nobody with power within the Bulls is going to say shit because they don’t want to be viewed as racist.

Racist…I hate the fkn word.  It’s not racist if it’s true, that’s called facts.  People throw that damn word around like it’s a frisbee. One of my students called another student racist and I just look at him and said “you know, you’re generation is wearing that word out like an old pair of shoes”.  He didn’t get it…

Let’s change the subject…got this awesome shirt today.1476064_918408798178524_2416612494481100991_n

Well, I have more to write but I’ll do it tomorrow/today depending on how you look at it.

12/4/2014

So today the Terminator trailer came out and the only thing I can say…amazing.  Finally, a terminator movie that deals with not only the machines but also time travel.  I know that the first one leaned towards time travel, but it was never really part of the movie throughout.  Just thinking about it I had to rewatch it. lol

I have an interview in a few weeks at a healthcare facility.  I enjoy the job I have now, but money is money and this other job pays close to what I was making at CADS, plus it’s salary.  Of course I won’t count my chickens before they hatch, but I keep thinking about my students and how they will react. I have an awesome rapport with 99% of them and most of them know they can come to me for anything.  I guess that’s where my issue is.  Would I be just another person who has come into their lives, just to leave?

Let’s talk about minimum wage shall we?  I understand that it is hard to live off of $8.25 which is what it is here in Illinois.  I do understand however, that those $8.25 jobs are not meant as career jobs.  Of course you will have those that will say you should go to college and get a degree, then you’ll get paid more.  That’s true, but there are some who legit do not have the means to go to school.  I’ll use myself as an example.  After I am done with my masters degree, I’ll have to pay back around $150,000 which is about $800 a month.  I’m well off, have no kids, and my wife works, but I have no clue how the hell I’m going to pay that back.  Now imagine being a single mother or father, with no way of getting student loans because if they did they would have their other assistance cut off.  It’s a bullshit cycle. “College tuition and fees have increased 1,120 percent since records began in 1978. “(Bloomberg,2012) Personally, I think college should be free.  Why would you want to dumb down the young people of your nation? Anyways,back to the minimum wage, if you think you should get $15 for flipping my burger, you can eat a bowl of dicks.  Get two $8 jobs if you want to make more money.

Immigration reform.  It’s funny when people bring up immigration when I’m around.  Guess it’s cause i’m mexican and they think i’m all for it or it’s a sensitive subject.  I’m all for helping people out. I’m all for people coming here for a better life. But when you come here illegally to obtain the American Dream, then you’re fkn up my chance for the American Dream.  Using our resources for those that come here illegally is bullshit.  How the hell can someone come into this country illegally and get financed for a car, yet I can’t due to my credit.  I mean shit, I’ll go to mexico and sneak back in this bitch if that’s what it takes. It’s not just Mexicans, but we are the ones people think of.   I do think its funny though when people talk about rounding up all the illegals and sending them back.  I laugh cause that’s fkn impossible.  I also laugh when people say they are taking good paying jobs..um no.  I don’t know too many whites or blacks that will pick fruit from the fields, watch your kids, cut your grass, or clean your home for less than minimum wage.

“Goodbye” by Slipknot is a beautiful song.

This guy here at Starbucks sitting across the room from me is watching Twilight.  Who the hell goes to Starbucks to watch Twilight?

Christmas is right around the corner and let me tell ya, I fkn hate christmas music…with a fkn passion.  Like, my ears begin to bleed when this shit comes on the radio.  I’m not a fan of christmas anyways, but my wife loves it so I tend to put on a smile.  But every time christmas music come on, I want to shoot that fkn radio.

Whitney Houston has been sober for close to 3 years now….good for her.