Tonight is the first preseason game for the Blackhawks. Normally, I’d be excited about this and call my dad and grandpa to see if they’re going to watch it, but not tonight. My dad and I decided not to go to the home opener, but rather watch it at his house, with my uncles, with my grandpa’s jersey on the chair he sat in. For the first time my dad will have to watch a game knowing he can’t call his dad to celebrate a win or pick him up to watch the game. Some of you may think that this is being over dramatic, but the Blackhawks were a bonding experience that was passed on through generations. Some may have memories of baking cookies with their grandma, or perhaps fishing with their grandpa, mine was celebrating a goal. As the Blackhawks take the puck past the blue line and slip the puck past the goalie, this celebration will be different, this celebration will be with tears.
Finally 2 days late, but better late than never. I’m still trying to figure out how to upload my vids straight from my iphone to wordpress. Im learning its a pain in the ass. Anyways, here is my take on 9/11/01
Let’s watch a video, shall we…
Here are my top three TOMM in no particular order.
- Stupid is as stupid does.
“Surveillance video shows border protection officers encourage teen to sip liquid meth solution that killed him”-NYDAILYNEWS. What kind of bullshit is this? The border protection officers encouragement didn’t lead to his death, his own dumb ass choices did. This kid knew exactly what was in those bottles. He got caught up in a situation where he was trying to pull a fast one on the officers and that shit backfired. If I’m going to carry liquid meth across the border and an agent tells me to drink some to prove it’s not drugs, best believe my monkey ass ain’t drinking that shit. Fuck this dumb ass guy.
2) Hmm..I wonder what the difference between these two are?
The picture on the left is of Charlie Gard who’s family was in the news for the past few months. He had a rare illness called mitochondrial DNA depletion syndrome. This disease weakens the bodies tissues and brain function. This issue here is that the doctors working on Charlie informed his parents that he should be taken off life support. They disagreed and asked to try an experimental drug on him that would reverse the illness. Close to 490,000 people signed a petition asking that he be allowed to travel to the US for treatment. The UK courts said nope and that’s when the US stepped in and gave Charlie citizenship so he could travel to the US without approval from the UK. A Dr from the US came in and tried to convince the UK courts that he could help Charlie. While waiting for an answer, the family gave up and just decided to have Charlie come home and die in hospice. The hospital in all its glory said sorry, his ventilator wont fit through the door. Well, a little to late as Charlie died a week before his birthday.
So 490,000 people came together to try to get this kid to the US. Funny, I didn’t see a petition going around for the kids on the right. I guess my question is, why is it ok to help one but not all? Why don’t these kids get the same news coverage as Charlie? And no, watching Sally Struthers at 2am talk about .35c a day doesn’t count.
3) Transgender ban in the military.
If you’re willing to put your life on the line for our country, more power to you, been there done that. However… I personally agree with the ban. Am I against transgender people? No. I just think that right now there are too many variables that the military would have to deal with. First, going TDY. If i present as a male today and am in an all male dorm/tent, then present as a female tomorrow, do I stay in the all male tent or does the unit officer go through the hassle of doing the paper work to move me to an all female tent/dorm? So now I’m in an all female tent, preop with a dick. There’s 12 females in this tent with you who don’t see you as transgender, they only see you as having a dick.
Second, service members have to be held to the same physical fitness standards of that of a male/female, not of the gender the person identifies with. Again, I’m a transgender female who is 67 inches, weighing 170 lbs, 4 lbs over the max limit. Now I present as a male whose weight limit for my age and height are 176 lbs, putting me under the limit by 6 lbs. How is that fair?
Third, it used to be that you went into the service to get free college, now you go in to get sex reassignment surgery or therapy. The issue here is that the military has to meet a quote on how many male/females join. If you’re a male today, female tomorrow, it kind of fucks numbers up. Also, tax payers aren’t going to be happy that their tax dollars are going to giving or taking away a penis.
Forth, you can not be combat ready if you rely on taking hormone treatments. You can’t be in a war zone for 6 months and skip treatments, it wouldn’t be healthy and may do damage.
What about Kristin Beck? She was a part of Seal Team 6 and is transgender. True, but she also transitioned when she got out of the military , so her argument with Trump and this ban holds no merit.
This last weekend has probably been one of the hardest times in my life. My grandfather passed away about 2 days after being taken off of dialysis. As the oldest grandchild, I think when it all happened, I was more worried about making sure my cousins and family were ok, rather then let my emotions get the best of me. It was after all just a matter of time after they stopped dialysis. Even though it was expected and you try to prepare yourself, it’s still heartbreaking. I know some people lose them when they are young, but I’ve been blessed to have had mine through my adult years. The first grandparent i lost was my mothers mom when i was about 19 or 20. So now 18 years after losing my mothers mom, I’ve lost my fathers dad. Seeing my dad at my grandpa’s bedside after he passed is an experience I do not ever want to feel again, only i know that I’ll have to go through it 4 more times. My grandpa was awesome. He talked shit, gave me the finger and told me he loved me all at the same time. Today at work, I think the realization finally hit because I broke down. I think about my dad the most. He was close to my grandpa like I am close to my dad. He can no longer call him on the phone, or watch the Cubs or Blackhawks with him. That scares me the most. There will be a day that I wont be able to call my dad, celebrate a Hawks goal, or go golfing with him. My grandpa hated going to the hospital for dialysis and for medical shit, so saying that I wish he was still here would be selfish on my part. Death is inevitable and I understand that, just wish taking the lose would be easier. Here is the picture slide show I did for the visitation.
No spoilers please! Um, how can you have a spoiler to a movie when you already know the story lol.
So we finally went to see All Eyez On Me and I’ll just say that it was good. On one hand, if you loved Pac, you’ll like the movie. On the other hand, if you loved Pac, you might not like the movie. Let me explain. I’ve been reading up on some reviews from critics and fans alike saying how the movie didn’t live up to the hype or how it wasn’t truthful. This movie is not a autobiographical film, its just a story about Tupac life. For that reason, there are fictional characters and scenes in the movie that didn’t happen.
The casting wasn’t too bad. Demetrius Shipp Jr really did look like Pac with the exception of one thing…his damn right eyelid lol. It drops down too much, but besides that one fault, he was perfect for it. Danai Gurira did an outstanding job portraying Afeni Shakur. I seriously hopes that she get an award for her performance, and no, not a BET award. One casting call that did piss me off was the casting of Dr Dre. Whoever chose Harold House Moore is an idiot. Why they didn’t ask Corey Hawkins to play the part is beside me. Harold looked more like T.I. than Dre. I guess while were on the topic of casting, I also wish they would have used R. Marcus Taylor as Suge Knight instead of Dominic Santana. Speaking of Dominic, there is one rapper that I would like to see him play is Big Pun. He looks just like him.
Besides Rocky Horror Picture Show, this is the only other movie that i can recall being at where everyone was singing along with the movie. There is one story that I wish they would have included in the move and that is the story of Janet Jackson wanting Pac to get a HIV test prior to their romance scene in Poetic Justice.
This Sept., it will be 21 years since his passing. For those of us who were teens or young adults in the 90s, he was our generations Elvis. I remember begging my mom outside of Best Buy for her to buy me “Me Against The World” because the dick working wouldn’t sell me the tape because of the Parental Advisory sticker on it. She ended up giving in and I was hooked. I think i played “Keep Ya Head Up” and “Dear Momma” till the tape wore out.
With Tupac, his music is still relevant today. You can take “Changes” and put it as a soundtrack to today’s events and you’d think Pac wrote it yesterday. Some of the older generation may only see Pac by the negatives they’ve seen on TV. But let’s look at the positives of a verse vs someone like Niki Minaj.
“I wonder why we take from our women, why we rape our women, do we hate our women? I think its time to kill for our women. Time to heal our women, be real to our women.”- Tupac “You a stupid hoe, you a, you a stupid hoe, you a stupid hoe, you a stupid hoe, you a stupid hoe (yeah), you a, you a stupid hoe…”- Nicki Minaj
The positive thing about music is that no matter how long an artist has passed, we will always have Bowie, Tupac, Sinatra, Elvis, Selena, Whitney, etc.
When i was younger my dad was in a car accident while working that was pretty bad. His car flipped over a few times, flipped over some railroad tracks and landed wheels up. Luckily he was just a little banged up and all I can really remember was seeing him with a neck brace on. Being as young as I was, I didn’t understand the severity of what could have came from that accident.
In 2013 I saw first hand what alcohol can do to someone when my uncle passed away from cirrhosis. It sucked seeing someone who was such a strong person slowly deteriorate.
Around last year, one of my mom’s had a slight heart attack. That was one of the first times in my life that I was truly scared about losing someone close to me. Thankfully nothing serious came from it and now she is back to being her old grouchy self again lol.
Now lets fast forward to a few weeks ago. My sister called me saying that my biological mom was in the hospital due to excessive bleeding. Side note, my mom has not been to a doctor/hospital in about 33 years. Yes, 33 years is not a misprint. Anyways, so my sister and some other family members convinced my mom to get a biopsy even though she is scared shitless of doctors.
Last week again my sister called me, and informed me that it was stage 2 uterine cancer. Now a part of me was saying “fuck, it’s cancer”. Then another part of me was saying “well it is uterine so an operation and chemo should kill it”. But here is the thing. My mom and stepdad do not really believe in pharmaceutical drugs and crap like that, they lean more towards the natural b.s..
So I just sat there thinking to myself. Is she going to take the advice from the doctors or is she going to just try some natural bs that probably wont work? But as I sat there, now with tears in my eyes, I said, well who am I to judge. She can do what she wants because it’s her life. I understand that some may find that disheartening, but if I was sick, I wouldn’t want people telling me what to do.
This I believe is where my sister and I are going to butt heads. I have told my mother that i will support her in any decision that she makes. Mind you, ANY DECISION THAT SHE MAKES, not what my sister wants or what my stepdad wants. My sister on the other hand wants my mother to do all she can to get healthy and I agree with her. But you can’t force someone to go through chemo, or radiation, or take pills the rest of their life if they don’t want to. I feel it would be selfish of me to tell you what to do.
I did go to Missouri a few days ago to see my mom and sister. I went not only because it had been a few years since i’ve seen my mom but also because i wanted to tell her to her face that I support whatever she does and that I love her. I also went up there to try to convince her that my sister needs to be her power of attorney and not my stepdad. Now this is NOT meant as a slap in the face to my stepdad. He is a truck driver and it could take him up to 48 hours to get back home. If something were to happen to my mom, I wouldn’t want them to try to get a hold of him and him not answer his phone or can’t come back right away. Leaving my sister there helpless. I also wanted to try to get my mom to let us know what she wants done funeral wise. Unfortunately my mom thinks that we are trying to put her in her grave already and of course that is not the case. I just want everything in writing so my sister and my stepdad don’t end up fighting over her wishes if she tells him one thing and tells us another.
Because my sister lives in Missouri, just 40 minutes away from my mom, I give her total respect and love for taking on this responsibility of caring for our mom. I could move up there and help her but i think that would do more harm than good. My sister has lived with my mom since she was born and knows how to deal with my mom, unlike myself who hasn’t lived with her since i was 7. My mother is set in her ways and my sister is used to it, whereas I am not.
My mom has agreed to have the operation, but the chemo/radiation will be the big obstacle. Now we just have to wait and see…